Devonte Redmond will never forget the day he found out he was no longer a Manchester United player.
It was the summer of 2018, Mourinho's last year in charge of Manchester United. Raymond is on his way to a beach holiday in Kos, Greece.
"I looked at my phone and suddenly I noticed that there were a lot of notifications on Twitter.'Wish you all the best', many such comments. It was really strange, and then I discovered the reason-there is a list of players who have been terminated by Manchester United. The list was posted on Twitter and is the official "reservation and termination" list. This is how I found out that I am no longer a Manchester United player."
Can you understand Raymond's inner feeling at that moment?
This is a young player who knows nothing but the Manchester United system. He was only 8 years old when he joined the Manchester United youth team, and he stayed at the club until he was 21 years old.
Despite having nearly two years to accept the fact that he has been rejected, Raymond's tone still has obvious sadness. All those dreams, all those longings, he said, "13 years, all wasted."
Since it was discovered in the Mediterranean sun that Manchester United had submitted their announced list to the Premier League that day, Raymond's adjustment has become very difficult.
"In the beginning I tried not to panic," he said. "I called my dad, and it was the first time he heard about it. He said that this was obviously not done in the right way,'try to keep calm.' He is a very calm person, so I listened to what he said. That feeling, panic, doesn't come all at once. I started to panic after about a few weeks."
Raymond's father, Paul Edwards, was also a former player. He has played for Wrexham, Blackpool, Oldham, and Wil Harbour nearly 350 times in his career for nearly 20 years.
雷蒙德的父亲保罗·爱德华兹（Paul Edwards）也是前球员。在过去的20年中，他为雷克瑟姆（Wrexham），布莱克浦（Blackpool），奥尔德汉姆（Oldham）和威尔·哈伯（Wil Harbor）效力了近350次。
But his father's experience still failed to prepare Raymond mentally to deal with the emptiness and directionless life in the months after being terminated.
Raymond and Marcus Rashford are in the same youth team and were once considered one of the most talented players among players such as McTominay, Mensah, and Tunzebe. However, only he learned from Twitter that he was terminated. Raymond was so hurt by this incident that for a while, seeing Manchester United on TV was a torture to him.
▲ In the 2015 Youth Champions League, Raymond is second from left in the back row, Rashford is fourth from left, and Mensa is right. In the front row, Gribbin is two from the left, and Tunzebe is one from the right.
No more training every day, no more comradeship in the locker room, no more excitement of match day, Raymond feels disappointed.
Then, he suddenly realized that he had no real life experience other than staying in the "bubble" of a Premier League club.
"I come from a family where football is everything," he said. "Football was everything to me when I was growing up. I have always been the most passionate player. I love football very much, and then suddenly I am no longer a part of it. Up."
"When I saw Manchester United appear on TV, I always felt like I was hit, especially when I saw my former teammates start to gain a foothold. For a while, I would think that this should be me, that could be me. "
Sometimes even the closest person does not know how to comfort him. "I work hard every day to stay in shape, run, and play football with friends. Then I go home. Everyone asks me how I train, but you can feel that they are a little nervous around me. They really don't know what to say. Make things better."
Conversely, he didn't want his family to know how much impact this incident had on him. So he told them he was fine and he believed everything would be fine. He didn't always know if it was true, but he still said it. But the longer the time, the greater the difficulty. Weeks became months. Christmas is here, Christmas is over.
"I remember one day I drove out," he said, "I told my mother I was going for a drive. But I didn't know where I was going, I started the car, and suddenly I found myself crying."
"This is the first time I have such feelings in many years. I have hidden everything for so long. I have always tried to face everything bravely, but I have never encountered such a situation. I have always been considered mine. One of the best players in the age group. So this is difficult."
"When you don’t have a team for a few months, you think, okay, what should I do now? What is the purpose of my life now? At this point you start thinking about some negative things. I don’t have Goal, is my family still proud of me?"
"It hurts your heart again on Saturday. You said to your friend, I wish you good luck in the game. But as for yourself, there is no game and you did nothing. Mom always said that something good would happen. But my phone did not ring. Nothing happened. I thought it was easy to change. My father kept saying, don’t think it’s easy. But in my heart, I still think it’s easy. It took me a while to find out, wow, it’s too difficult."
Now Raymond realized that this incident had hit him harder than ever before.
In the post-Manchester United era, Raymond's first pre-season training camp was spent in Shrewsbury in the third division. He trained with Dijon in Ligue 1. He knows what it feels like to try out. He is considered "the man who failed to succeed at Manchester United" and he began to realize that playing for Manchester United is no longer always a good thing.
He also found that the skills learned at Manchester United training camp are not necessarily applicable to the lower leagues. "If you receive youth training at Manchester United, Manchester City or Liverpool, you are used to training in a certain way. There are not so many long passes, or a role like the previous siege hammer. I don’t mean you can’t adapt, but many low-level players The coach has no time to wait for young players to adapt."
In the fall of 2018, McTominay began to establish his position in the Manchester United first team midfielder. Raymond has fought side by side with McTominay for many years and was once considered a better choice. Now, they are heading in completely opposite directions.
When McTominay became Mourinho's new favorite, Raymond was dangerously getting closer to becoming another football statistic-being eliminated and unemployed.
"I have to start thinking, what else can I do," he said, "because if one month passes and I still don't have a club to want, it may be a struggle, because you left the stadium for a whole year, how do you come back?"
"I studied business at school, so maybe I can become a personal trainer or do some sports-related work. I really don't know what I want to do."
Sometimes, this industry is so cruel.
Manchester United had eight players on the list submitted to the Premier League at the time. In addition to Raymond, there were young midfielders Charlie Scott (Charlie Scott).
Scott was a frequent visitor to Manchester United U23 at the time. The club's official website described him as "strong commanding ability and composure in handling the ball" and possessed "the traits of becoming a valuable asset for the team".
Raymond is one year older than him, thinking that young Scott has a long career waiting for him. He said that Scott is a "very good player". However, people sometimes have a naive misunderstanding that when a player is eliminated by an elite club, there is always another opportunity to wait for them not far away.
Scott is now 22 years old and plays for Newcastle City in the seventh division of England. This is an amateur club. "He also does some coaching work, and we are very happy that he is here." Newcastle City club secretary Ray Tatton said. "He lives close to the club and can walk to the game."
斯科特现年22岁，在英格兰第七分区的纽卡斯尔城效力。这是一个业余俱乐部。 “他还从事一些教练工作，我们很高兴他在这里。”纽卡斯尔市俱乐部秘书雷·塔顿说。 “他住在俱乐部附近，可以步行去比赛。”
In addition to playing football, Scott also works in a nearby joinery company. He makes some money from this, and at the same time keeps him busy and has no time to think about it.
But there will always be times when they are free, there will always be times when they are blank. "Without my parents, I'm not even sure if I would be here now," Scott said. "I was driving on the road for a while and wondered what would happen if I hit that tree."
Scott joined Manchester United's youth academy at the age of 6 and was terminated in the summer of 2018. He was 20 this year. "Three-quarters of my current life is spent at Manchester United, so you can understand my feelings. I fell from the peak of my life to the bottom."
Former teammate Rashford has given Scott a lot of help and has always cared about him. The two are still in touch. Scott will visit Rashford once a week. But in the past, his teammates became first-rate stars, and he is now reduced to the seventh-level league. To some extent, this is another blow.
For him, the bigger battle is not on the field, but on the inside. "I have been at Manchester United for 14 years and now I have been eliminated and returned to my hometown. I have been thinking about what everyone would think of me. They would think,'He had a chance to get ahead, but he screwed it up.' Friends told me not Worry, I can't control myself not to think so."
Michael Carrick was also on the cancellation list in June 2018. He was 19 years old at the time and stopped playing football.
Others are between 19 and 21 years old.
Theo Richardson is now in the eighth level of Cleethorpes Town. Ilias Moutha-Sebtaoui plays in Luxembourg. Max Johnstone is the third goalkeeper of the St. Johnstone team. Joe Riley made his first team debut when Van Gaal was in charge and now plays in Bradford City. Jake Kenyon, the once promising full-back, no longer plays.
西奥·理查森（Theo Richardson）现在位于克利索普斯镇（Cleethorpes Town）的第八层。 Ilias Moutha-Sebtaoui在卢森堡玩。马克斯·约翰斯通（Max Johnstone）是圣约翰斯通队的第三位门将。乔·莱利（Joe Riley）在范加尔（Van Gaal）掌管球队时首次亮相，现在在布拉德福德城（Bradford City）效力。曾经有前途的后卫Jake Kenyon不再上场。
Without getting in touch with Paul Mitten and working together to develop an action plan to reignite his career, Redmond may also be on the road to retirement.
Paul Miten was also a shooting star for Manchester United. His grandfather Charlie was a member of Manchester United's FA Cup championship lineup in 1948 and played more than 150 times for the team. Father Charlie was also on the Manchester United list. Football is part of this family. Now, 44 years old Paul is a fitness coach and also coaches unemployed football players.
His first impression of Raymond was that he was “completely lost and his world came to an end. There was no direction, no goal, expecting the phone to ring, but it didn’t. It was a terrible, terrible, lonely situation. . I know this feeling because I experienced it more than 20 years ago."
After going through a difficult process, Miten finally understood why Alex Ferguson would say, "Manchester United is a bus that waits for no one." Miten was fired by Manchester United at the age of 18 when he was not ready to face a mental blow.
"The boss called me to the office," he said. "At the time, there were two rows of players. One row was contracted and the other row was not. After talking with the boss for five minutes, he just said that we think you are not good enough. This is not a question, you can only accept it, you can't answer it. So I can only pack my things and leave. After that, you won't receive calls from the club again. That was the last time I contacted Manchester United."
他说：“老板叫我去办公室。” “当时有两排球员。一排合同是紧缩的，另一排则没有。与老板交谈五分钟后，他只是说我们认为你不够出色。这不是问题， “你只能接受它，不能回答它。所以我只能收拾东西离开。在那之后，你将再也不会收到俱乐部的电话。那是我最后一次联系曼联。”
Despite this cruelty, Miten can understand how football clubs operate. "I don't blame them," he said. "Football is cruel-one is eliminated, and the next newcomer fills in immediately. But those who leave leave traces of destruction in their hearts: broken young people, broken dreams, Weak people turn to gambling, alcoholism, and drug use. Then it becomes a mess."
Miten plays forward, or 10, a year after Class 92. A torn ligament in the knee was a serious blow to him, and at that time the level required by Old Trafford was so high.
"I would cry and fall asleep," he said, "I feel that I have let my parents down, they have been taking me around for years. I am embarrassed and I know my old classmates will laugh at me. I am a rejected person. , I don't belong here, I am a mess."
Mitten later signed an 18-month contract with Coventry, but his knee problem again appeared after 6 games. In the long and arduous recovery process, the club signed two other players in the same position as him.
He started to sign a one-month-a-month contract. Two things made him particularly memorable.
"They wrote the names of all the players on the wall," he said, "printed on A4 paper, from No. 1 to No. 40. One by one, until No. 27, and then stopped, with a large space in the middle, and then It's me, number 40. I was 20 years old."
Later that day, the players were asked to try on the club uniforms, “I walked in and got the message, I’m sorry, we didn’t prepare for you. I was a kid at the time and I never really grew up because I just started From club to club, I have not been exposed to these real worlds. These two little things may destroy me mentally more than anything else."
"You were abandoned by football. I packed my things, brought my sneakers, brought my little TV, and went home. My parents didn't know why I suddenly came back,'I was fired.' Then I was on their sofa Crying, I was 20 years old that year."
Two weeks later, Miten signed a contract with an employment agency and found his first job outside of football. "Mow the grass in the hospital, operate a lawn mower, up and down. Someone slapped me because I didn't repair the fence. Two weeks ago, I was still a Premier League player."
▲The 1992 Manchester United youth team. The one on the right was Phil Neville with half of his face blocked, the one who bent down was Paul Miten, and the third from the left was Karl Brown, mentioned below.
▲1992年的曼联青年队。右边的一个是菲尔·内维尔（Phil Neville），他的一半脸被遮住了，弯下腰的是Paul Miten，而左边的第三个是卡尔·布朗，如下所述。
"It's actually very sad that there is no real support system," Derwent Raymond said. "A lot of people will go astray because of this."
Derwent Raymond说：“实际上没有真正的支持系统，这实在令人很难过。” “很多人因此而误入歧途。”
Two years later, Raymond has grown up and is smarter. He has a better understanding of himself and the entire football industry.
Seven months after being terminated by Manchester United, Salford City at the fifth level gave him the first chance to return. He started 11 games last season, averaging 90 minutes. They defeated Fayld at Wembley and won the chance to advance to the fourth tier.
"It made me realize that there is another way out." He said, "It doesn't have to be at Manchester United. I gave it all, and then I tried to climb out of the hole and I came back."
Raymond signed with Wrexham at the fifth level last summer. He has no hatred for Manchester United, and his social media is still full of positive news about the club where he has played for 13 years. This is still his club, as a Manchester United fan. He knows that the club’s youth training system is also changing.
"At that time the club was in transition," Raymond said. "Now things are getting better. They have a better rental system. There are coaches dedicated to renting out to help the boys. There are more exchanges now, but it just happens to be During my time, it seemed that there was no communication. You don’t know who to go to. No one can make a decision."
"Before that, I really enjoyed it. It was like a family club. But after Mourinho came, it changed from a family club to something else. The first team, the reserve team, and the youth academy were very divided. Clearly, they are all separated and no longer so complete. Its structure is more like a team is a team, and it is separate."
After leaving Manchester United, Raymond joined Miten's plan. "He never missed any of my lessons," Miten said. "He didn't reserve anything. When I asked him to dig deeper to see what the dark depths of his heart were like, he couldn't open his eyes with fright. . He is still a child. We made a plan together: stay healthy, be mentally prepared, seize the opportunity, seize it."
Raymond met Miten, but what about other more youth players? They grew up in the youth academy until they were about 20 years old, and their dreams were broken.
Also working with Miten on this "Reinventing Player Care" project is Karl Brown, a member of the 92nd generation of Manchester United youth players. But after a series of injuries, he was terminated and missed the first team with David Beckham, Paul Scholes, Nicky Bart and Neville brothers.
"The youth team I belong to has several of the most successful players in the past 30 years," Brown said. "Leaving the team is the hardest thing I have ever encountered. The club used to be my home, but now I have no job. Real life skills, no more careers. I lost most of my friends, they set off, and I felt like I was left behind. My life, as I knew it when I was a teenager, It has ended."
18 years later, Brown returned to football and began coaching. He returned to Manchester United in 2014, and since then he has been working at the Manchester United Youth Academy. "I think I can give players first-hand advice and support, and at the same time train them to become professional football players," he said. "I don't want young people to experience what I once felt."
"Reshape Player Care" focuses on the players Callum Gribbin (Callum Gribbin), one of the most popular young players in the Manchester United Youth Academy, was released last summer and is now at Sheffield United, 21 Years old also allowed him a lot of time to rewrite his career.
Down the pyramid, another example is Max McGreal (Max McGreal), a former Rochdale youth player.
在金字塔下，另一个例子是前Rochdale青年球员Max McGreal（Max McGreal）。
McGrel is one of hundreds or even thousands of youth academies who are terminated every year. Like many people, he felt that he had been treated unfairly. He started to lose himself and went out to drink when he was preparing for the game. But now, under Miten's guidance, he has corrected his attitude and played for Stockport City in the tenth division. He said that he is enjoying football again.
Every day, football players’ dreams are broken, and this is just a drop in the ocean.
Some people say that the youth players don't go to school too? The problem is that most of them were too persistent and too confident to be football players that they did not take their studies seriously.
Psychologically, many people have joined the club from the age of six or seven, instead of being desperate until the age of 14-16 as in the past, so it's harder now. The club is all they know about life, and this is the problem, especially after the disaster of Tottenham’s Josh Lyons.
Lyons was terminated by Tottenham’s youth training system at the age of 16, fell into depression, and committed suicide 10 years later. In the 2013 investigation, the coroner Karen Henderson criticized the sport’s insufficient support for young players. “After teenagers’ dreams are shattered, it is very difficult and cruel to rebuild their hopes for life. I think football lacks sufficient attention and support for this aspect."
里昂在16岁时被托特纳姆热刺的青年训练制度终止，并陷入抑郁并于10年后自杀。在2013年的调查中，死因裁判官Karen Henderson批评这项运动对年轻球员的支持不足。 “青少年的梦想破灭后，重建他们对生活的希望是非常困难和残酷的。我认为足球在这方面缺乏足够的重视和支持。”
One suggestion is that the club should provide "parachute" remuneration for dismissed college players, or as part of the contract, a supplementary fund should be invested in the pool of funds, as necessary as the cost of player education and fitness programs.
But many clubs still have such an attitude that once a player leaves, it is someone else's problem.
"Too many good players are ignored and then disappear." Miten said.
"It really took me many years to regain myself. Was anyone helping me at that time? No. Guess what? Twenty years have passed, and it's still the same."
How long will it take to get out of this gap?
"To be honest," Miten said, "I don't think I ever stepped out."